If you read my previous post about my 2015 (see here) you’ll know that my boyfriend and I split up. Whilst I was with my ex, I went through various phases of wanting to lose a bit of weight but it was really, really difficult and in all honesty he didn’t help matters. I was told more than once that if I lost weight and became ‘less curvy’ he wouldn’t fancy me anymore. Although this didn’t change the fact that I wasn’t happy with my body it made me more hesitant to try and lose some weight as I wanted to keep him happy. Thinking about it now, I know that this is wrong. Someone who supposedly loves you should never tell you that if you change they won’t fancy you anymore. They should support you and do all they can to help you be the person you want to be and if they don’t; you need to get out.
Anyway, my motivation for wanting to lose weight/get fitter is not about making some guy happy, I want to do it for myself. I want to be able to look in the mirror and be happy with what I see. I have good days and bad days with my body. Sometimes I’ll look in the mirror and think ‘you know what, I’m not that bad.’ unfortunately those days are few and far between and I would love to get to a point where the good days outweigh the bad.
I was having a think earlier today and I thought that keeping a weekly fitness/weight loss diary would help to keep me motivated as it’s something I have struggled with a lot in the past. Hence the beginning of my new blog series. Each Sunday I will be posting a summary of how well I’ve stuck to my exercise plan/healthy eating whilst maybe sharing some recipes of the types of things I eat when I’m trying to lose weight.
I have been trying to eat healthier for the last three weeks or so and I have managed to lose 10lbs so far which I’m pretty pleased about. At the start of the month a group of us at work started a weekly weigh in where we weigh ourselves and then write on a chart how much we’ve lost/put on each week. We don’t share how much we weigh with each other or anything just if we’ve lost or put on. Knowing that I have to tell a group of people at the end of the week how I’ve done has really helped me to make a conscious effort to try hard.
Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t completely stuck to a diet plan or anything; I have eaten chocolate & a few McDonalds but by being good the majority of the time I have started to lose weight. I know from previous attempts that dieting/healthy eating alone will only get me so far, if I want to continue losing weight I will need to begin exercising.
My best friend has been nagging me to join the gym for a while now; it’s something I had talked about doing in the past but then never bothered. I was always a bit too embarrassed to go to the gym; assuming that all the fit people would judge me for being a bit overweight and extremely unfit but, on Tuesday I finally took the plunge. I went along to the gym, signed up for a membership and worked out. Another friend also signed up at the same time so we had our gym induction together which made me feel a little less self conscious.
Once our induction was over (it took about 20/25 minutes) we were left to our own devices. I did 10 minutes on the bike, 10 minutes on the treadmill, 3 minutes on the rowing machine, 5 minutes on the stair climber thingy and then I did some weights. This may not seem like a lot but bearing in mind I haven’t done any form of exercise for about 3 years I don’t think I did too badly!
Although getting very hot and sweaty, once I had finished at the gym I felt really good about myself. I was really pleased that I had finally done some exercise and I felt really positive.
On Thursday I went to an Insanity class (my membership includes the gym, classes and use of the swimming pool) and oh my god. It was SO hard. I did struggle to keep up but so did a few other people which made me feel less like a failure! I didn’t really know much about Insanity before I went along, I just knew that it would be difficult.
If you haven’t attended an Insanity class before it’s basically where you do a particular thing for 30 seconds and then go on to something else for 30 seconds etc. The types of things involved are push ups, burpees, and squats. There was a lot of jumping around but before the class started the instructor asked if anyone had any pre-existing injuries and she gave adaptations for those that did.
The class was 45 minutes long but it went so fast. I thought it would be like hell on earth but although it was really hard, the time flew by. The instructor wasn’t horrible and she didn’t yell at anyone. She was really encouraging and came round to make sure everyone was getting on OK and I think this really helped to push me to keep going. By the end of the class I could barely walk so I knew it had done something! By the morning I was literally aching all over. My thighs were the most painful but my bum, calves and arms also hurt so if you are thinking of going to an Insanity class; be warned. The next day is a killer!
My plan for the next week is to go to the gym Monday and Tuesday and then go to Insanity on Thursday. I was thinking about maybe going at the weekend but for now I think I’ll just stick to two days at the gym and one exercise class during the week.
I know this has been a bit of a long post (well done if you’ve managed to reach the end), I did kinda ramble on a bit at the beginning but there were a couple of things I wanted to get off my chest. I hope you enjoyed the first instalment of my fitness journey, I’m excited to see where the next week will take me. If you have any tips on keeping motivated please let me know in the comments!